in the words of greg dulli--don't forget the alcohol ohh baby

it has been in the 90's here for the past several days. we don't have central air and have not put our window air conditioners in yet. i have been sitting in my HOT house all day (the thermostat says it is 86 in here) with two toddlers. i am hot, cranky, and bored.

ellyn had her math final today and was all in a tizzy because she had trouble w/ it. i bought her the new coldplay to make her feel better. she also found out today that she made the 2nd team all-state women's lacrosse team. all she could think was that last year she made the 1st team. on monday night she got herself all worked up into a migraine and puked. i feel badly about this. it seems that she is one of those people who suffers her failures (or perceived failures) more than she enjoys her successes.

harry had his official birthday yesterday. most of the time he is fairly even keel. every once in awhile he will get worked up but rarely. i remember reading that girls that think they are high achievers mostly attribute this not to natural intelligence but to putting a lot effort into it. boys on the other hands always think they are smart whether or not their achievement level supports this position. i would say that this has been supported in most of my experiences with people.

my resentment level with my husband is again at a high level. the earliest he has been getting home is 6:30pm. he came home at 7pm tuesday night and he thinks tonight he will be late tonight. usually i have no idea when he will be home until he calls and says he is leaving and he can do this from anywhere from 5:15 to 6:30 or 7pm. then he has an hour ride home. this means he is gone 12 hours a day. this means i take care of the babies and everything else all day. rewarding family life----no. rewarding marriage-----no. he is off this weekend. he was on-call last friday and sunday.

next saturday we have his work's graduation dinner that lasts about 3 or 4 hours. they also don't have the decency to provide free alcohol. not even one drink free. his departments xmas party is at his bosses' house. they provide a nice spread--but everyone other department has their xmas party at a club or restaurant. come on, you're doctors, you have the office xmas party at your house. they also have a pool party every summer but they don't provide the alcohol or food it is BYB. if you are going to throw a party and it is for your employees and thus they feel an obligation to attend you provide the food and the goddamn liquor.

so back to the original story.....my husband also works the last weekend of the month. he is taking off this friday because he had to work a saturday last week he wasn't scheduled to work. he has 5 days off this month...this is counting his 'get out of work free' pass he got for previously described saturday. there is also a good chance he might have to work saturday the 18th.

the lessons one should have learned from the following entry.
1. Don't fucking marry a doctor.
2. If you are ever in the position to be in-charge of your work's xmas party or if you ever throw a party for the love of god provide free liquor. if not someone should be allowed to beat you and you should take the beating in good spirits acknowledging the whole while how much you deserve it.
3. embrace and enjoy your successes
4. learn from your failures but don't let them haunt you and make you get a migraine and puke.
5. don't buy the new coldplay cd. i did it for all of us and took the hit. you don't have to.